Well, they've done it to me/you/us again. My beloved boys in red and gold have failed yet again. This one might have been the worst as there was actually a moment or two when I thought we could win. Thought the curse was over. Thought we'd get that Indy monkey off our collective back. Thought I would get to experience some post season joy. Don't get me wrong, I remember what post season joy felt like, but I was barely old enough to drink back then. It's been a long hard road since.
I watched the entire fourth quarter curled in the fetal position on my couch, rocking back and forth, thinking over and over, "this can't be happening." It happened. The first thing to come out of my wife's mouth (a lifelong Donkey fan) was, "I know how you feel..." Needless to say, a ten minute screaming tirade ensued. My apology was swift and well accepted, but there is NO WAY IN HELL a Broncos fan knows how I felt at that moment.
When my eight year old son asked how we could be so far ahead and still lose, my only answer was, "I don't know." He still thinks I know almost everything and I got a strange look after that answer. I was so upset/shocked/outraged that I didn't even bother to watch the late game. I chose instead to attempt to drown my sorrows. At least Jim Beam has never let me down!
Today I turned to AP hoping to put a little perspective on this whole mess. Believe me, I was sick to death of, "what a great season you guys had/ what an incredible turn around from last year/ you guys will be even better next year" by around 8:00 last night. Just let me be mad for a while, ok? After perusing the sight for a bit, I realized there seems to be two insane mentalities floating around here.
The first is the hoard of Alex Smith haters. No, he wasn't drafted by us. No, he probably won't ever be an elite QB. But to say this guy cost us the game is insane. Did you watch that train wreck? He put up 44 points sans Jamaal Charles and anything resembling a quality receiving corps. he also has the best stat line of any QB that played this weekend. Better than Luck (eff you btw), Rivers, Dalton, Brees, Kaepernick, Foles, or Rodgers. to put this loss on him is crazy at best, just plain dumb at worst.
The second camp seem to on board with some sort of public execution of Kendrick Lewis. Is this guy great? Not even on his best day. Did he get burned and beaten yesterday? I got bruises and blisters just watching him. But you must ask yourself some questions. Was he the only guy covering Hilton all day? While doing that, was he also the spy on Luck? He had his hands full and was still asked to stop the run and keep pressure on the QB all by himself? It simply cannot be one man's fault.
I know we're all upset and looking for a scapegoat, but I came here looking for some solace and I get a bunch of finger pointing. Trust me, as a parent of eight year old twins, I get plenty of that at home. This is a team game and yesterday was a team loss. A horrifying, unbelievable, soul crushing team loss. If you want to start pointing fingers, do what I did and point one in the mirror. I have no one to blame but myself for loving this heart shredding franchise.
Hug your kids and loved ones. Call your folks if you're still able. Be nice to your fellow man for absolutely no reason other than it's the right thing to do. It's just a game after all. An extremely aggravating game, but a game none the less.
Besides, (for easily the 30th time in my life) there's always next year.