Hello, Arrowhead Pride. My name is Jamal and my username is NJChieffan16(Not the well-appreciated NJ Chiefs Fan)
I am 20 years old. I joined AP back when I was 16(Hence the 16 in my name. Clever I know..). I am young clearly. During my lifetime, the Chiefs are 1-8 in playoff games, with the 1 victory coming when I wasn't even 5 months old yet. However, they are 0-4 in my time as a fan. I am also the only Chief fan in my family. I have been a fan since 2003, so it has been pretty much 10 years for me now. I remember the 2003 playoff game, but barely because I was 10 and had just become a fan of the sport. I remember the 2006 playoff game, but I knew back then that we probably did not belong. I did not believe we made the playoffs back then. I remember the 2010 playoff game and felt it was probably a false positive anyway. I had hope, but not a lot of it considering the blowout losses.
Then, yesterday happened. The 2013 playoff experience. I was not that positive about the game, but I did think we could win the game. I do not need to repeat what happened as we all saw it and it was nothing short of soul-crushing and heartbreaking.
The game had me very upset for maybe 30 minutes. The belief that we finally got over the hump seemed to be coming to reality, but then it came crashing down.
However, something happened today, AP. A close friend of mines lost her father today. I felt for her and, unfortunately, I was unable to see her today. I found out through someone else. She is a Saints fan. While I am sure that the victory by the Saints made her a happy woman, I am sure that the loss of her father erases any positive feelings she has. Her husband is a Raiders fan. I talked smack to him about his team and that sweep spoke for itself this year. But that was far from my mind. I had some interaction with him today and he only cares that his wife is consoled. I am sure that the Raiders season means nothing to him right now.
For me, I honestly wanted to say something to her. I wanted it to be unique, but I have nothing unique to say to her. So I sent her a text message shortly after I found out. It said, "Hate to say what everyone else does but sorry for your loss. I'll talk to you further soon." I had no idea what else I could say. Everyone is going to tell her the same thing. But I knew I would see her later this week. You know what she said to me? "Thank you!"
Yes. A simple "Thank You". You know what else? I felt pretty good. I know it does not seem like much, but just knowing I could have said something instead of nothing made my day. It brought up memories of my own loss back in 2006 that still stings to this day. My brother passed away at the young age of 14. As you can guess, I was really young then(Our sister was 7 at the time.)
Why am I saying all of this? Well, in the end, there are things that are bigger than football going on right now in all of our lives. I want to encourage you all to grief whatever way you need to and move on with your life. Life goes on, but for some of us, it is unfortunately cut short. So, AP, please. Go to your loved ones. To the ones who may have had to deal with your emotions while you witnessed the worst possible collapse ever by your favorite team. Tell them you love them. That you appreciate them.
I have unfortunately lost my faith in the Chiefs(for now anyway), but more important things are going on in our lives. Don't allow this downtrodden franchise to ruin your life that you still live.