For the past ten years I have been a rabid Chiefs fan. As all true fanatics can attest, the connection we feel with our team is so powerful it can be scary. When Tony G. left I jokingly told my wife I felt like I had been dumped, but a good part of me was serious. I experience endless embarrassment Monday mornings when walking into work brings, "Ouch, that had to hurt." As if losing Sunday after Sunday was not enough.

Win or lose I wore the embarrassment, the sick feelings, the incredible rage as a badge of honor, because they are the effects of a battle that I have not fought alone. Oh no. I know there are countless Chiefs fans around the world sharing in my pain. Doggedly fighting the good fight not because we are winners, but because we are fans of the
Kansas City Chiefs, and that is just what we do. Our love and enthusiasm does not diminish with each loss, but we soldier on. And each time Tamba smashes Phillip Rivers I knew beyond the money, the fame, the stats, a little part of him did that for me, and for our city.

It is this camaraderie that has kept me going. But unfortunately, as the fans and many of the players stand arm in arm, I am afraid the key link in our chain, the man whose love for our Chiefs is most vital for success, does not love our Chiefs like we do. I am afraid Clark Hunt may not love the Chiefs. Maybe he wants them to win sure, but does he get sick to his stomach when the Broncos are in the red zone like we do? Does he feel completely embarrassed after getting blown out by the Raiders like we do? Does he rage after our fifth turnover of the game like we do? I don't know the answer to those questions. What I do know is that for the first time in 10 years I don't want to care anymore. My rage has been replaced with a shrug of my shoulders.

As big of an imbecile as Jerry Jones is, I can tell he hates to lose. Not for his brand, not for his bank account, but because he gets sick like we do, and he gets embarrassed like we do. And you know what, as much as I hate Dallas, it seems like he tries everything he can to win, for the right reasons. At this point I would take ineptitude over apathy, because with ineptitude there is the chance we will stumble on to something great. Unfortunately, it seems like we have both an inept owner and an apathetic owner. With this combination we will stay the same. We will stay the course. We will lose spectacularly. We deserve better.