Things Aren't Always As Bad As They Seem
From the FanPosts. -Chris
I was at Big Charlie's Saloon on Saturday night. I had the rare opportunity to meet Scott Pioli. I originally intended to do a lengthy post about my trip to philly, how cool Big Charlie's is, and show the pictures of Pioli signing my shirt and just generally brag about that whole experience. I'll tell you this much about Pioli, he really is a man of the people. He treated all of us in that bar with respect and dignity. He listened to our concerns, told jokes and laughed with us, and was as accessible a personality as I ever could've imagined.
He is a smart guy with a long term vision and even though this season has started off rough, I have every confidence that he knows what he's doing. Whitlock says he is an ego, and maybe that ego shines through when he's dealing with as big an ego as Whitlock himself.
But in that small bar in South Philly among some of the most passionate and die-hard fans the Chiefs have, he was one of us. It would be easy to be detached and distant and even egotistical when you're an NFL GM and you're among regular beer-drinking joes, but he wasn't.
For a half hour, Scott Pioli was one of us. He wasn't able to stay around for long, so he wasn't able to have a one on one conversation with everyone gathered in the most random Chiefs bar in South Philly, but he did address the group as a whole.
There is one thing he told us, and something that other recent events in my life are reinforcing the wisdom of: Be Patient.
Little did I know how meaningful that advice would be only a few short days later.
Events come at you pretty quickly in this life, and those first reactions when something bad happens are often emotional. Your thoughts get clouded. You think that the world is going to end. You turn off all rational thought. That's what I felt like after leaving the Linc on sunday afternoon. I thought: here we go again, another long painful season. I had visions of 0-16. I didn't think rationally. I lost my patience and along with it, I over-reacted and and imagined a situation worse than what actually is.
Yesterday, my girlfriend was diagnosed with a brain tumor. The second I heard those words, I lost it. Every ounce of thought in my head fluttered away and I was left with raw emotion. Fear, worry, panic. The tears were overwhelming. I felt like the worst possible thing had happened. But when the tears subsided, and the diagnosis became more clear, I realized I had overreacted. I realized that the diagnosis wasn't as bad as those two words first sound to the untrained ear. Things are going to be tough, no doubt, but that there was a plan, a course of action, and a protocol that the doctors were following that would make sure everything would turn out alright. When I settled down and started listening to what the doctor actually said about the situation, I learned that the tumor is benign, not cancerous, and that there was a 99.9% survival rate for surgery that she is going to undergo next week. This doctor has been involved in this surgery a thousand times for this kind of tumor (an angioma). She had kidney cancer when she was 3, and the neurosurgeon said that the radiation from the chemo likely caused the tumor, and that the tumor has probably been there since she was a kid around 5 years old and has just been really slow growing since then. Its not actually on her brain, but its on the membrane surrounding the brain and the growth of it (about the size of a baseball) has been pushing into her occipital lobe, causing the migraines and lightheadedness that prompted her to get an MRI. There is an 85% chance that she will never have a reoccurance of this tumor. Those two words initially scared the living shit out of me, but when I started listening to the facts, when I started thinking rationally and not reacting purely emotionally; when I finally regained my patience, I realized how fortunate we are. I realized that this was a challenge that would demand our focus, but that things are not always as bad as they seem.
That initial physical she had was like the game at Baltimore. We knew the symptoms (the preseason), but we didn't know what to expect. The results were ambiguous; further tests would be needed. The MRI was like the Raiders game. Everything went as we expected, until the final results came. The MRI was abnormal. Something was wrong. The trip to the neurologist was like Philly. It seemed like the worst possible thing that could happen did. Those two words were spoken, and the world around me started to spin. The despair, the pain, the agony, and the worry that I had that I would lose the one person that I have loved with such passion, the one person who I knew from the moment I met her that she was the one. You hear the words "brain tumor" and you stop thinking, you just react. It seemed like the worst possible result. But as the situation sunk in and I started hearing more about the tumor, I realized that not all hope is lost. I realized that this was a test, a challenge, and a burden, but that we would get through this and everything will be fixed in time. The game this sunday against the Giants will be like the surgery. It's all on the line. Its going to be a challenge, its going to feel like forever, and there will be difficulties. But we will emerge on the other side of it stronger than we were when we entered.
So I am asking you all, let's not react with our hearts on our sleeves. I gained a lot of perspective on life over the last 24 hours. Things aren't always as bad as they initially seem. Patience will guide us through the tough times and when we are finally rewarded with the good times and the good news, it will be all that much more rewarding because we know what we had to deal with to get there, we know that challenges we've faced and overcome in the process, and we can rest assured that our character will be stronger, wiser, and more tested than any other because we've confronted the worst possible scenarios and conquered them.
This is a FanPost and does not necessarily reflect the views of Arrowhead Pride's writers or editors. It does reflect the views of this particular fan though, which is as important as the views of Arrowhead Pride writers or editors.
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Wow... that's a very powerful post
thank you so much for sharing
* "I doubt anyone will miss Connor Barth except UCrawford"
* the LB corps may become the biggest strength of the Chiefs in 2009
* The OL is NOT as bad as you think it is... give it time, and you'll see improvement this season
by stagdsp on Oct 2, 2009 2:01 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Great post sudden.
Your girlfriend will be in our thoughts and prayers.
by Chiefsfan1970 on Oct 2, 2009 2:07 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
I agree.
I lost my mother to a cancerous tumor, I know the feeling you’re going through. Good luck with everything, hope it works out well, I’m sure it will. Hopefully her spirit gives the Chiefs some luck this weekend.
by TonylovesKC on Oct 2, 2009 6:09 PM CDT up reply actions 0 recs
Tremendous post!
The analogy almost makes this football season seem trivial, compared to what you’re going through with your g/f…
I feel bad that this happened to your g/f, but the story and patience you’ve shown are uplifting. Thanks for sharing!
Definitely rec’d! My thoughts and prayers are with you both!
"Every day is an evaluation and if you’re not out there how can we depend on you? If you’re out there and you don’t know what to do, how can we depend on you?" Accountability -- Haley-style...
by Chief_Elmo on Oct 2, 2009 2:17 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Thanks guys
I really appreciate all the prayers and support. It means a lot.
I gotta admit though, I need it more than she does. I am amazed with how well she is handling this whole situation. I’ve been the wreck and she’s been the rock. She is an inspiration to me. Of course, she’s a Patriots fan so she knows that patience and reason will bring rewards in the end.
For justice we must go to Don Pioli
by Sudden on Oct 2, 2009 2:32 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Dude, she's a woman. They're stronger than we are.
No question. Otis Taylor should be in the Hall of Fame.
by hmills110 on Oct 2, 2009 6:05 PM CDT up reply actions 0 recs
Thank you
for taking the time to write such an eloquent and thoughtful post. Patience and perspective in all things. Thanks for the reminder. All best to your girlfriend and you.
by nycchief on Oct 2, 2009 3:08 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Awesome Post!!
Probably the best post I have ever read on this site!! If your writing is that good being a wreck….you should be a columnist.
Dude, This really woke me up. I just posted about how our coaches are not qualified to lead us and now I feel terrible about jumping to conclusions. I am ready to follow the Chiefs lead and support our team and coaches 100%. What you said was so inspirational and motivational, I wish somehow we could get that printed up and sent to every Chiefs player and coach.
Nice work and double triple Rec!!!
"Hell yes I love my truck, but I want you to know, honey I love your love the most" - Eric Church
by Matt_Grbac on Oct 2, 2009 3:20 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
easily
one of the best post I have read. Great post.
by jakethesnake27 on Oct 2, 2009 3:28 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
excellent post all prayers are with your girl and you
Watching the chiefs for me all though at this point is a sad part a life there is no feeling like watching our team run out on the field or the moments that we do a big play .. Even though we are losing i still realize its just a game and although its nice to win im just greatful to be alive and to be able to watch a team i love and also to chat with others on this blog who are just as passionate as i am about the chiefs. deep down guys i love you all your fam bam and to hear your story really hurt my heart but im sure she will be tough and make it through.
FOUR F'S FIND UM FEEL UM FUGUM FORGET UM.
by sexassassin on Oct 2, 2009 3:34 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Perfect post and perfectly worded sentiments from sex
My Thoughts are with you both Sudden. Time for the Brave face and the Stout heart.
We Will kick at least 4 Teams Asses in 09
And Succop will be the Key in two of them.
" Think and talk positive football off the field." Hank Stram
by Steve_Chiefs on Oct 2, 2009 4:50 PM CDT up reply actions 0 recs
damn she is in our prayers
Well said.
by Ren on Oct 2, 2009 3:47 PM CDT via mobile reply actions 0 recs
Good Post
My kids and I met Pioli last week at Kauffman, he was coming from Arrowhead. The kids got a pick with him and he was nice. Intimidating, but nice. I think he is solid and seriously devoted to his work. I hope your girlfriend gets all the help she needs. Being in the medical field, I see this at times. You hang in there and be patient with the process. God Bless
by vermonster on Oct 2, 2009 3:51 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
She will make it through with flying colors...
afterall, she’s the girlfriend of a Chiefs fan…..she’s already been through the wringer :)
My prayers are with you & yours….
by HeatherChiefsLvr on Oct 2, 2009 3:57 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Give her your love and support, man.
She will be fine, just fine. I will say prayers for you both.
by G.L. on Oct 2, 2009 4:10 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
wow....
Awesome post.
Don't forget to be an AP-vangelist...Tell A Friend...
by woodman212 on Oct 2, 2009 4:10 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
great post
i, for one, am going to pray for her and appreciate the message
Never kick a fresh turd on a hot day.
Harry S. Truman
by kcguy on Oct 2, 2009 4:21 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Nice post man
that really puts things in perspective
by DBOWESHOW on Oct 2, 2009 4:28 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
That was Awesome!!!
Thoughts and prayers are with you both.
I'm not a smart man
by Gumpster on Oct 2, 2009 4:33 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Outstanding Comparison...
I definitely rec’d this post, one of the better posts I’ve read since becoming a member. It’s always tough when you have to experience issues such as the one you are facing. I just lost my cousin to cancer last month, and we had to watch her deteriorate for 6 months before the good Lord took her. As bad as the Chiefs played last week, there is hope, there is always hope. That is the point that I think you’ve driven home here and I for one love it. Outstanding job, bro. And also, if you don’t mind, please keep us posted as you both will defintiely be in my prayers…
Put this in your pipe and smoke it:
1. Chiefs will be at least 8-8 and vie for division champs
2. DJ will break out and finally have his year
3. LJ returns to form
4. DBowe drops will reduce
by kcchiefsfan72 on Oct 2, 2009 4:40 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Thanks for Sharing.
It is posts like these that remind me that being a fan or fanhood easily becomes a greater community.
Consistency is only a value if you are not a screw up.
by schraggyj on Oct 2, 2009 5:20 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
I am so glad I read this post.
I found out earlier this week my mother is dying from polycystic kidney disease. At first, I was so distraught…the first couple of days were hell for me. I couldn’t focus on anything but her dying. I’m only 20 and can’t fathom losing my mom when I’m only 30 or 40. She’s my best friend, and I will be devastated when she leaves.
However, I have learned to cope and look on the bright side. I will have 10-20 years left with her. There may days where she wants to give up…where her body wants to give up, but I will have to hold her until the hurt goes away.
Thank you for sharing this story. It puts me at ease knowing I’m not going through this alone. If you ever need anything, you can e-mail me at asmoul89@yahoo.com. Take care and best wishes.
—Aly
by SupremeChief on Oct 2, 2009 5:38 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
You and your mother are in my thoughts and prayers
and trust me, I’ve been doing plenty of praying lately so I’ll make sure include you in mine. I went through a similar thing when I was 20 and my dad had stroke. I remember how scared I was that he would lose his ability to talk, walk, or even his life. He ended up making it out alright and its seven years later now. He still deals with blood pressure issues and I worry about him everyday, but I thank God that I have had the good fortune to have the last seven years with him.
It helps to know that we have such a support network in our families, our friends, and even our fellow AP commenters. We’re all in this life together and as Singletary says, “I am my brother’s keeper” My deepest sympathies and best wishes to you and yours, but I have faith that everything is gonna work out in the end.
For justice we must go to Don Pioli
by Sudden on Oct 2, 2009 6:13 PM CDT up reply actions 0 recs
I can't imagine
I hope things work out better than you expect, and that your mom beats those odds. Miracles happen, and while times may seem bleak, one can never abandon hope. I’m only 21, and I can’t imagine that sort of pain. If you ever need anything whether it be to talk or just vent, my AIM is Gypsies0706, I’ll always listen.
Matt Verderame
by Flowers24 on Oct 5, 2009 9:01 PM CDT up reply actions 0 recs
Good post Sudden
That’s strong stuff. My wife’s in her eighth month of pregnancy and we’re dealing with some significant complications. I agree, you try to keep a stiff upper lip and both feet on the ground. You take it one step at a time and deal with the raw facts. If you can eliminate the panic and the emotional gymnastics, you’ll get through it in as good a fashion as possible. Hang in there man! My best to you and your girl.
Braccae illae virides cum subucula rosea et tunica Caledonia-quam elenganter concinnatur!
by Buck'O on Oct 2, 2009 5:43 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Wow, rec'd.
Great post. Good luck with everything man. My family sends you guys prayers.
by Chiefsfan85 on Oct 2, 2009 5:55 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Straight from the heart sudden.... and right back to you from ours...
We will all be keeping a good thought for your g/f and you until the both of you come throuhg the other end of the tunnel. Please keep us informed and we’ll keep you both in our prayers.
by CurtMerzFan on Oct 2, 2009 6:30 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Puts it all back in perspective doesn't it?
I just lost a good friend who had a cancerous brain tumor.
Life is precious and a gift. Don’t blink..
Football is nothing more than a game.
Great post and you will be in my thoughts and prayers..
As others have mentioned, please keep us posted…
Speaking of Don’t Blink, this is one of the best songs I’ve heard in some time.. I’m sure some of you have heard it..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p4ySSg4QG8g
Rowdy
by KCRowdy on Oct 2, 2009 8:04 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Nice Rowdy
I blinked and my boys went from 6-8 to 14-16 years old.
I blinked and I went from 42 to 47 and where did it go?
Life, is a stressfull and full of problems, as somewhere says: One Day at a Time.
and hopefully soon I will learn that, getting there.
A little longer lunch, A little longer conversation, and definitely thinking more and giving more of yourself to those that have made your life a better life.
No need to give more time to the Assholes and jerks that will eat up all the time we are given if we let them. In time spent or Brain cells wasted.
We Will kick at least 4 Teams Asses in 09
And Succop will be the Key in two of them.
" Think and talk positive football off the field." Hank Stram
by Steve_Chiefs on Oct 2, 2009 10:43 PM CDT up reply actions 0 recs
Counter
We Will kick at least 4 Teams Asses in 09
And Succop will be the Key in two of them.
" Think and talk positive football off the field." Hank Stram
by Steve_Chiefs on Oct 2, 2009 10:47 PM CDT up reply actions 0 recs
Thank You
You show great courage, strength, and poise. I also appreciate the fact that even through the pain and adversity of it…you are sticking with her through the tough time. You may feel hurt, frightened, and angry that it is happening, but you are there for her with the support she needs. Awesome.
Just like for the Chiefs, I’ll pray for you and your girlfriend.
by TXChiefan on Oct 2, 2009 9:24 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Great Post.
Your girl will be in my prayers. With regards to the Chiefs, even if we get completely blown out by the Giants, I will not think anything beyond what I already think about the Chiefs…that they have the worst O-Line in the league and it is causing our offense to stink and the offense stinking is leading to our defense being overworked. Yea yea, our D-Line, our linebacker pass protection, and coverage abilities beyond Flowers pretty much suck too…but perhaps they could be better if we were not so completely dominated on offense. Personally, I think we will get blown out but only because, like last week, the Giants strength is their D-Line and blitzing abilities.
by Kristospherein on Oct 2, 2009 10:41 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
I was at big charlie's too
Hi, Sorry to hear about your situation. I wish you the best. I read your post and thought I would say hello. I got to big charlies about 12:30/1:00. I missed pioli but met someone who had a signed shirt. Curious to know if that was you.
I drove in from NY to go to the game. My Girlfriend is from Philly so we stayed with her brother. Big Charlies is a wonderful place to visit.
Again, I hope everything works out for your family.
by Chief of NY on Oct 2, 2009 11:03 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs
My prayers
Are with you and your girl. Hope this is a small glitch and that you both have long and happy lives.
Chiefs go 9-7. LJ makes 1400 yards. DBowe makes 1200 yards. Defense #18.
by Zodeman on Oct 3, 2009 6:27 AM CDT reply actions 1 recs
This hit home
I was recently diagnosed with cancer and after all the initial thoughts and fears, the explanation of the treatment and the prognosis of a recovery eased my mind. It’s just going through all the CRAP to get there that sucks. But we’ll get through it because we have faith and hope! Good analogy Sudden. Thoughts and prayers for you and yours. The Chiefs will also heal. Go Chiefs!!!
by REMWHEN on Oct 3, 2009 9:58 AM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Good luck man
We’re all behind you!
Matt Verderame
by Flowers24 on Oct 5, 2009 8:58 PM CDT up reply actions 0 recs
OMG FIRST POST I REC'D
I LOVE this post. I have been panicking. But thanks for this post in guiding me to where we are.
Bowe and Wade FTW.
When you fail to prepare, you prepare to fail.
by NJChieffan16 on Oct 4, 2009 12:01 AM CDT reply actions 0 recs
THE WATERS ARE ON ME
I know you remember me from Big Charlies. (Laughing about the waters and Larry spitting in our faces) Man. I took your advice and signed up for this site and it’s great.
I hope everything for you and your girlfriend go well. When I read this I was touched.
Take care.
by nviccione on Oct 4, 2009 10:26 AM CDT reply actions 0 recs
Nice...
Welcome to AP man. Good times meeting Pioli and just having a blast in Big Charlie’s. By the way, if you check out the video of Arrowhead East on the Chiefs website, we’re definitely in it. Thanks for the well wishes and hope you enjoy the site, lots of good commentary on here and a very friendly bunch for the most part. A daily must-read, especially for us out-of-market chiefs fans.
For justice we must go to Don Pioli
by Sudden on Oct 5, 2009 3:10 PM CDT up reply actions 0 recs
That was awesome and inspiring
Thanks for giving me a perspective I sorely needed. My thoughts and prayers are with your girlfriend and yourself. I have plenty of faith she will make it through for what that’s worth. Thanks again, your post really changed my thoughts around and showed how life should be viewed…one day and one event at a time, with focus and wisdom inserted throughout each day.
Matt Verderame
by Flowers24 on Oct 5, 2009 8:57 PM CDT reply actions 0 recs

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